Ugh. I'm having a real shit day today.
I've been feeling a headache coming on all day, and when I got home from school a couple of hours ago, it hit me like a shit storm. BOOM BOOM BOOM. My head is pounding. I feel it in the back of my head, behind my eyes (I know that sounds freaky) and in my forehead. On top of that, my neck still hurts from stretching a muscle the other day. I was cleaning and then wham, I couldn't move my head for the whole rest of the evening. That's supposed to motivate me to clean more how?
Woe is me.
But there's also something else that has made my day shitty. This post is going to be full of the word 'shitty, just to warn you -- you've probably caught on to that already, though.
I'm going through a phase right now where I'm super motivated about my school and doing my absolute best. I am by nature ambitious, though I'm trying to tone it down a notch, as the pressure almost killed me last year. Figuratively speaking. However, I'm feeling really frustrated with some of my classes. My English class, for example. I really to the core of my soul hate how the teaching works. I know that's just how it is, but it's so uninspiring. Of course my English is not perfect and one can always learn more, but I am BORED.TO.DEATH; both with the literature we are reading, and the subsequent conversations about it.
Maybe it has to do with me paying attention to everything the teacher is not paying attention to, and vice versa. Usually we have to read about ten pages of a book, say, "Hard Times" by Charles Dickens for example. Fine, good, dandy, that's not the issue. The issue is that we are then handed a sheet of questions, and everything that I have highlighted (or written sarcastic comments to) which I felt to be important when I read it is not what he wants us to notice; which causes me to loose interest, because I feel like it's so unimportant to the story.
And also, I hate that we are supposed to analyze an entire book and gallery of characters based on ten pages. I hate it out of principle. There is a reason why a book is 300 pages long. There's so much character development in those 280 pages you don't read that you are then missing, and you can't base shit off ten pages. For example, we read ONE chapter of "Jane Eyre" by Charlotte Brontë, and, like... I have no idea what happens after they find Mr. Rochester's wife in the addic. So, no, if anyone asks me if I have read Jane Eyre, I'm gonna have to say no, because one chapter of Jane Eyre does not equal having read Jane Eyre.
I wish there could be more free discussions. English is a second-language to us, and I don't think there is a better way to learn it than to carry conversations or debate. Talking about ten pages constantly is bullshit, especially since all you have to do to make your teacher cream is point out where the answer is found in the text. That's it. Big whoop. UGH, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
Tomorrow is going to be such a long day. 8.00-4.15. I've got 4 different classes, each with double periods, so my schedule looks like this: 2x Math, 2x Biology, 2x Social Studies (B-level) and 2x English (Oh yay, NOT). Mmm, more literature to slaughter and abuse. Can't wait.
Okay, well, on that happy note, I'm gonna go do my homework. Here's student life for you: